"That's totally mental." that's what my husband says. And that might be true.
But I cannot help thinking, what if the air way is pushed by unset jaw bones and tissues?
I should be, right? I am breathing. Just once in a while, I feel like I have to remind myself to breath.
Or it feels like I don't get enough air from regular breathing.
It might be stress, or it might be totally something else.
But this is causing stress for sure.
After dropping off my scanned images at surgeon's office. It's been four weeks.
During that time, I called a few times. Each time they say "we will call you."
Apparently the doctor didn't even look at it for a long time because "he is busy" with other surgeries.
So after 5 and a half weeks, I called again.
They say "he's not in this office today. I'll call him and call you back."
They didn't call that day.
Next day, I called again.
Same story.
But then later they called and said "he has to see you. So we can make an appointment."
Okay.
He will see me. That means it wasn't "okay." or "nothing is wrong."
Something IS WRONG. Otherwise, he would say "you don't have to come in."
But the appointment is another four weeks away.
That means nothing they can do in the short term. OR nothing would change in that time period.
Only my anxiety will increase.
I will have an appointment on December 5th. I don't know what he would say.
Probably something like "I've never had the case like this." "should be set." "don't know what happened."
Even if he knew something might have cause the trouble, he wouldn't say.
This is America, people would sue people all the time. He wouldn't admit even if that was his fault.
So from there, where am I going to go?
If there isn't any health problems, then it might be okay to leave it.
It may cause the problem like breathing, then something has to happen.
Now the insurance policy is all changing, I will have to look into everything again!
What a pain! I don't want to spend another $4000 for it, either. I would rather have a vacation.
But my health seems to be a problem.
I've been having this breathless situation more often than before.
Hope nothing is serious.
